Working out hasn't been happening at all, and I've gained a little bit of weight back because of it. I also blame this on my terrible eating habits (sometimes not eating at all because I just don't feel like it), and lack of desire to eat healthier foods. I was doing really well for a while, and then a specialist that my husband see's changed his entire diet. It went from high fiber to NO/LOW fiber. What? So like pasta everyday? Thats when salad everyday went out the window. If I wanted to continue the diet that was helping ME, I would be making two different dishes for every meal. Not going to happen, my kitchen is not a restaurant. I am happy to say that my husband has been doing much better!
I had a job for 3 months. It proved to be the dumbest idea. What was I thinking? Having small children, a husband in school, a household to run, a garden to tend to, and downtime at night - is more than enough for any stay at home mom. I only asked for 2-3 days a week, and within' a couple weeks I was working 6 days a week, all day long. That shit didn't fly long because my day off consisted of large amounts of laundry, a house is serious need of a cleaning, dirty bathrooms, no food in the house, and errands to run. It was exhausting and the day I put my notice in, was a great day! Once I was done with the job, I spent 4 days just catching up on all the little things.
The last year has also been a big year for personal reflection, growth, and understandings. I learned that you cannot always put "things" in pretty boxes and throw them in attics because they will haunt you. I have an incredibly smart husband who has taught me that there are healthy ways of dealing with things, and although it's hard to deal with them, it must be done. Well, in short - I did it! I dealt with some things and now I feel so at peace.
I've also realized that I have totally neglected myself in the past couple years. I hate my clothes, my shoes, and everything in between. What happened to that girl with all the cute clothes that used to fix herself up most of the week? She was long gone, and nowhere in sight. Well I'm sick of that character. I'm going to kiss my 20's goodbye soon, and this old me is going with it. I'm stepping into my 30's and I'm doing it with grace and style. I wouldn't say I'm reinventing myself, just getting my old "style" back. It's time.
I have some serious gardening to do this year, and I couldn't be more excited about it. It started well last year, and then ended very badly when I got that job. My entire garden went from healthy and manicured, to total shit in about 3 weeks. Not this year, and do I ever have plans!
This photo tells a lot about me that I'm finally willing to address. I'm constantly cleaning something, my hair is a mess, I'm way overweight, and it's time for change. P.S., what I'm really doing is cleaning up the large mess our Christmas tree made when we brought it home. My mother-in-law made me stop so she could take my picture.
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